Wednesday 25 September 2013

Fountain 0. Landevennac, Brittany 19th July

The incidentals at the start of a journey easily fade from instant recall and their place in the story is skipped over. Maybe they become a disjointed adjunct to a dream or maybe what shoots past one's eyes in the "I saw my whole life pass before me" near death moment. Statistically, as a motorcyclist, I should have several of these moments to quickly review my life. And therefore, should count myself lucky.




          2 pm.  Mother, daughter and granddaughter walk past in what has been an otherwise
                     empty square.



             2:15 pm.      My lucky coin rests before plunging into the depths where wishes,                 formed and unformed, stew and brew in an alchemical limbo before
they take shape on the material plane.   



                                                                       Miro 

                       "Truth is brand new. Truth is like for a matador the instant confrontation". 
   


           An extensive exhibition of Miro's prints, paintings and sculptures in a vast, unpopulated space. I drifted in a daze. My elbow creases creaking, like the seats of a snazzy car, whenever I'd lift  my arms to take photos or brush the hair from my eyes. Having nothing particular to do except  fill the days and coming weeks with impressions, I open all my senses.



              Exhibition catelogue -
                     "Miro offers us a cosmic theory inviting us to move around 
                       and connect to the energy of celestial matter".     
                     



               4:35pm.    I moved and connected.
 

Thursday 19 September 2013

The journey is dead. Long live the journey.



The journey is dead. Long live the journey.

I have postponed my arrival to England through avoidance.
 Avoidance of the obvious fact that I am here, and have been here, at least in bodily form, for 16 days, 2 hours and 11 minutes. My spirit is left behind somewhere, perhaps as a bit of salty mist clinging to a buoy in the harbour breakwaters at Roscoff.

As I reflect back upon my journey I realise that despite my slightly scathing account, I was, in fact, deeply struck at the time. And because this hit a resonant chord it has stayed with me like the trailing note of a piano waiting for the next note to follow.

At one of the portals in Rocamadour was a stunted fig tree. Mounted on the wall between the portal and the tree was a notice explaining the significance of its presence. The notice said that the pilgrim would pause before passing through the portal and consider the fruits borne of their journey. It posed the question: if a pilgrimage was made but produced no fruits, was it indeed a pilgrimage?

I look at my fruits and consider what weight they hold. Are these fruits that can be shared openly?
And I think not. They must first undergo a process of transformation, followed by transfiguration and then, when I have truly understood these fruits, a transubstantiation.

Before I can do anything, however, I must arrive in totality. So while I have been waiting for me I have washed windows, tidied up, put my studio in order and frittered a lot of time away. I could bake a welcome home cake, but what what if I don't appear and the cake grows wastefully stale. Can I then, please, return to France and look for me?



Wednesday 4 September 2013

Oradour-sur-Glane




On the 9th of June, Oradour-sur-Glane was a typical French village with cafes, hairdressers, bakeries, a church and so on. People were busy doing whatever it is that they normally do, albeit during a German occupation. Within twenty four hours everything was not normal.

As an act of retribution, sparked off by the killing of a German officer, Nazi troops swept into the village. The men were shot against various walls and the women and children were locked in the church. Then the town and church were set alight. 642 people were killed: 197 men, 240 women and 204 children.

The village, in its ruins, with crumpled cars, twisted bed frames, rusted sewing machines and dangling electric wires has been preserved as it was found and is now a memorial to the Martyrs. A sign requesting silence is at the entrance to the site. Visitors wandered, shook their heads, took photos of the melted lump that was the church bell or the jagged skyline of broken buildings, wiped their eyes and blew their nose. People didn't make eye contact; they wrapped themselves in a personal protective bubble. The silence was palpable and uncomfortable. Perhaps too uncomfortable for the three Germans who chatted and joked and too inconvenient for the English man tying up a house deal on his mobile.

A large underground bunker was built to house the few personal items reclaimed from the rubble. The collections were displayed on glass shelves set in concrete that were lit from below. One display was several layers of melted glass shards: sundae dishes, wine glasses, a vase. Another held blackened wire-framed spectacles. Another, watches whose hands had stopped between 4pm and 5pm. So little of their full lives remained. Yet there were the odd survivors: a blonde curl tied in a ribbon, a baby's embroidered jacket, a short poem written in a disciplined script by Huguette to her Maman, with three little flowers painted at the top of the page.

I thought of the soldiers who herded these people to their deaths. They would have seen the colour of their eyes, smelt their perfume or sweat, heard their voices, their breathe, the rustle of their clothes, watched the women comfort the children.

How did they live their lives when everything returned to normal?

It was a shocking and terrible war crime. But as I type, isn't this happening in Africa, the Middle East, South America, the Far East? Women and children being raped, people having their lips and ears cut off, people being shot, hacked, exploded, and little children being trained to kill.

Oops. Oops. Oops. Somewhere we have made a huge mistake, just as the Nazi's did. Their officer had been killed in a different village altogether.